22 August 2009

Relactation?

I've been discharged yesterday alhamdulillah. Felt much better now, physically and mentally especially after seeing the two boys. Firas dah boleh berjln ke sana ke mari, dah boleh main, dah boleh gelak. Kata husband, sepjg ketiadaan saya dia cuma 'terkapok' dlm dakapan husband, langsung tak boleh diletak, langsung taknak main dgn org lain, etc. Rindu sangat pd mama yer sayang :)

After nearly 2 weeks of not nursing firas directly, my milk supply drops tremendously to only 1oz yesterday. Tried to pump at the hospital during morning on the day i was discharged, but only few drops coming out, hence i resorted to hand expressed, and the total collected is only 1oz. Really sad but the other part of meeself was some sort of already redha with it. As far as i remember, i pumped only once a day during the days i was warded (before the surgery). Monday i went for surgery, and only wednesday i had the energy to pump again, that time i got only 6oz in total. Thursday i pumped and got 3 oz, and friday (the discharged day) i got 1oz.
Besar sungguh dugaan Allah kali ni.

Last night, i tried to bf directly and firas didnt seem to get enough. As such i supplement with ebm once throughout the night. Today, i also supplement with ebm once, and i tried to feed him with solid as much as possible :p Opps dia dah upgraded from finely blended puree to normal rice ok. I fed him with rice and chicken soup today and he simply loves it! Malam ni, i dont know yet but i have the feeling of having to top up with ebm again since my breast feels empty all day long. I'm one unhappy mom definitely :(

Nevertheless, the journey is still ongoing, and i tried not to think too much about it. Mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. What i can do now is try not to feel too depress about it, drink loads of plain water day and night, and berdoa pada Dia moga rezeki firas masih panjang lagi. And yes starting from tomorrow i shall continue eating white lobak hoping it will boost the supply.

pray for me my dear friends....i feel very sad indeed :(

21 August 2009

Anyway ku masih di hospital. Tadi doc datang, ku terus pujuk dia supaya kasik discharge by today. Dia nampak macam agree, tapi pepe pon ptg ni dia akan dtg tgk lagi and decide. Adus cam patient kesayangan plak rasa hihi, dia mmg sgt concern...well my case may be quite rare and posted a big challenge to him, and to his skill...sbb tu dia nampak a bit reluctant to release me.

Tadi saya tgk rancangan masakan kat tv, depa dah start buat biskut and kek raya dah adusss mengancam keimanan sungguh. sempak jugak la ku taip resepi cheese cake chef asma sambil dia masak2 tadi hihi.

Selamat Berpuasa yer kengkawan semua...semoga kedatangan Ramadhan kali ni membawa seribu satu keberkatan dan pengertian kpd kita semua. Jgn lupa, jaga pemakanan anda...jgn mkn yg pedas2, minyak, dan berlemak sgt tu....sebenarnye more to a reminder to meeself :)
Saya dah berangan nak buat cream caramel and kek batik buat suami. Walaupun diri sendiri takleh mkn, tapi husband suke hati pon senang :) Menu ramadhan minggu pertama saya ni confirm la sup ikan haruan jek :p

berangan lagi....?

Kelmarin masa saya dihabiskan dgn menonton cd operation saya. Hehe curious jugak nak tahu ape yg doc buat did lm perut saya ni. Tak penah saya imagine yg gall bladder (GB) saya tu size dia lebih besar dari saiz tapak tgn saya ni. Sgt swollen, dan tegang, spt belon yg tunggu time nak meletup! Dan just imagine instrument doc tu plak adalah 2 pasang gunting yg pjg bilahnya dlm 1.5inch, dan benda tu la yg digunakan utk mencangkuk GB saya tuh. Confirm takkan dpt catch punyer betul dak hehe. Maka saya lihat doc me’laser’ GB, membuang fluid di dlmnyer, dan macam2 lagila utk mengecilkan size dia supaya dpt dicapai oleh gunting yg kecil itu. Cd macam tak complete, so saya tak dpt lihat macam mana akhirnya doc dpt keluarkan GB yg besar itu. OKla stop dulu….rasa loya plak bila teringatkan screen shot procedure tu :p

Kelmarin juga agent insurans saya En Meg*t dtg melawat. Dia adalah junior husband di mckk dulu, juga junior kami di MMU. Diberinya saya seketul teddy bear yg comel, rasa malu plak, dah besar pjg tetiba dpt teddy bear hihi. Saya dan husband sebenarnya agak teruja, kerana kami tahu kami layak membuat claim under insurans saya tu. Yela dahla kami dah upgrade ke bilik single deluxe, which is lagi mahal dari single standard, so harapan kami bila dpt claim insurans terubatla sket poket yg rabak tu :p Bila membuat kira2, dgn bayaran bulanan yg saya buat tu, saya layak dpt RM250/night sebagai hospital allowance+rm500 surgery benefits (mengikut severity of surgery procedure). So dlm otak dah siap merencana, nak sambar netbook satu lah, nak bwk family kedua belah pihak pegi holiday la, yada yadaa. See nafsu dah mencanak2 tak tentu pasal :p

As we flip thru the policy (ni adalah first time saya jumpe Meg*t) and I’m yet to sign the policy, tetiba kami terpandang pada satu clause. Clause tu ckp sakit saya ni (stones related to urinary or biliary systems) falls under 7 categories of specified illness yg mana insurans company hanya akan cover cost medical after 120 days after the commencement date of the policy. Ohhhhh harapan kami terus musnah! Saya baru je bertukar ke insurans baru ni, date policy saya 9 June 2009, obviously saya tak layak nak claim! Dangggggggggggg hancur berderai netbook ku ituuuu akakakakkaka. Nampak gaya, terpaksala saya swipe mr credit card bila discharge nanti :p
Sampai ke ptg kami berdua gelak terkekeh bila terkenangkan perkara ni. Itula, sape suruh berharap sgt. Itula…sape suruh pasang angan2 cepat sgt.

Ape2 pun, saya bersyukur, allah masih menyayangi saya. Biarla tak dpt claim pon, yang penting saya cepat sembuh dan dpt berjumpe kekanak di rumah tu.

Husband siap tanye, nak tukar bilik ke awak? Saya kata takperla…..tadi kan kata dah pasrah :p

19 August 2009

the KPJ episode

salam sumer,
rasanyer ramai yg tak tahu saye sebenarnyer tgh warded di KPJ kajang :p
Dan baru saje selesai undergo laparoscopy surgery membuang gall bladder isnin 17/8. Skarang tgh recuperating alhamdulillah...condition wise i felt a bit better, though the pain is still there.

Sebenarnyer saye dah ulang alik ke hospital since last tuesday, masuk drip, amik blood test, etc sbb kena gastric attack yg sgt teruk dan muntah2 lebih 20x. Badan dah dehydrated, body cramp all over dan disebabkan saya almost collapse doc di klinik memanggil ambulan utk antar saya ke KPJ last week. Memikirkan firas yg masih bf dan kecik, saya decide not to be warded dan bertahan dari selasa hinggala ke kamis. Tapi come friday, badan saya dah terlalu lemah...akhirnye saya menyerah diri, mintak dekat doc utk wardedkan saya sbb tak tahan dgn gastrik, muntah dan loya2 yg sgt teruk. Makan mmg tak lalu langsung, menyebabkan bdn saya bertambah lemah. Teringat lagi hari rabu kot, pukul 12 lebey tgh mlm saye dan suami antar kekanak ke nursery sbb saya kena gastrik pain yg sgt teruk....kami pegi ke emergency utk mintak jab malangnyer Q terlalu pjg, last2 kami ke klinik jer. Itu kali pertama saya berpisah dgn anak2. Dan masuk hari ni, dah 6 hari saya tak berjumpe firas dan idlan....sedih mmg sedih, tapi sakit di badan kenala jaga juga.

actually saya mmg dah lama ade gall stones, since the past 2 yrs bila buat ultrasound doc dah detect ade few tiny gall stones. tapi katanye tak payah buat surgery or anything considering saya tak sakit. Bila dah kena recurrence gastric attack yg terlalu kerap dan teruk, doc buat lagi ultrasound and inform gall stones saya dah bertambah byk dan membesar, the largest was 1.3cm, and my gall bladder was badly inflammed. Terus dia refer kpd surgeon dr kumar. Ahad mlm, Dr kumar dtg and inform saya utk proceed with surgery to remove the gall bladder, sbb dah badly inflammed, plus he said there's no point of keeping a bladder yg tak serve its purpose. Gall bladder adalah storeroom utk bile, yg diproduce oleh liver utk mengemulsifikan lemak2. Dr kata a lots of people are living without gall bladder and they just live like any other normal person. Instinct saya mmg terus agree to proceed wth the op bcoz i just couldnt stand the pain, it was so unbearable yg pada saya sakitnyer lagi teruk dari sakit hendak bersalinkan firas. husband plak balik rumah terus search the net for alternative treatment n watnots.

Isnin 17/8, saya dah ade keputusan saya...pruzz pon agree with the surgery. Pukul 4pm, saya disorong ke OT bertemankan pruzz, MIL dan SIL. Dr kata a straightforward case will take about 30-45min for the whole procedure. Tapi mine may take a bit longer considering gall bladder saya yg tgh inflamme tu. Apa2 pon saya hepi sepjg ke OT tu, dgn harapan biarlah sakit ini pergi once and for all.

Op saya selesai dalam pukul 8ish pm....husband kata dia risau kerana terlalu lama, plus nobody informed them on the progress of the Op.

Selasa 18/8, Dr Kumar dtg and explain the whole thing about the procedure. Dia kata i was lucky, sbb kalau saya tak op skarang, probability for my bladder to get ruptured was very high sbb mmg dah seriously inflammed. saya terus nangis bila dgr, rasa spt nyawa di hujung tanduk. My case was a big challenge to dr kumar, in fact in the middle of op derang terpaksa tukar instruments and watnots to suit my case. horror saya dgr...tapi syukur Allah masih sayangkan saya. Sampai skarang saya rasa macam fobia bila dgr kata2 doc tu...tak tahula ape akan jadi should i decided not to do the op...mungkin condition saya makin parah, dan infection to the whole system....dan sebagainya masya allah takut utk saya bayangkan. Saya sendiri dpt rasakan dr kumar was some sort of proud dpt resolvekan case saya....dan syukur dia hanya buat laparoscopy and not change to open surgery. Dia dah remind saya katanye kalo kes terdesak he may end up doing an open surgery to take out the bladder. Dia kata gall bladder saya dah melekat di liver, susah sgt instrument dia nak cangkup bladder tuh....and dia terpaksa go a bit farther and upper to catch the bladder. Well CD sepjg op tu ade di tepi saya ni, tapi i still do not have the guts to take a look at it. Bila saya dah sihat, mental and emosi dah stabil, barulah saya cuba beranikan diri tgk cd tu.

tak pasti brape lama lagi saya akan berada di wad ni, yg pasti saya mmg rindukan anak2. dah 3 hari saya tak perah susu....rasanyer perjalanan saya utk menyusukan firas akan berakhir tak lama lagi. stok yg ade mungkin cuma bertahan selama sebulan je lagi. Mungkin setakat ini je rezeki firas. Kata husband, idlan dah lama tak bertanyekan pasal saya...mungkin dia mrajuk sbb dah lama tak jumpe saya. husband reluctant nak bwk dia ke spital, dgn kes H1N1 yg byk ni...biarlah mereka tak dtg jumpe saya. Firas plak ntahla...dia mungkin tak faham lagi. saya sgt2 rindukan mereka....sabar ye sayang....insya allah tak lama lagi mama akan keluar.

Syukur saya dikelilingi insan2 yg tersayang sepjg saya sakit ni. MIL dan SIL yg temankan saya siang dan mlm. Husband yg slalu terkejar dari opis ke hospital, menguruskan anak2 lagi. Kalau takde mereka, mungkin saya makin depress. Ibu saya takde di kl, skarang di kelantan menemankan nenek yg kurang sihat. Tima kasih mak, tima kasih unda....and to my lovely hubby, i just couldnt find the right words to thank you. You're one greatest gift god ever gave to me in this life. Kpd opismate, bos dan kengkawan yg dtg melawat, time kasih ye semua....sesungguhnye time sakit ni kata2 semangat korang sgtla saya perlukan.

Doakan saya sihat ye kengkawan.

Luv,
-yatipruzz-
19/8/08

09 August 2009

Firas's besday bash

Antara pics yg disnap sabtu lepas sempena besday bash Firas. Buat majlis simple jer, jemput 3 buah family terdekat, nak wat besar-besaran rasa tak mampu plak dgn kudrat yg ader, dgn firas yg suke menyendeng, dgn H1N1 yg berleluasa..cewahh byk plak reasoning aku ekk :p

Aku cuma masak mee kuah (guna spagetti) & nasi himpit, then pruzz order sate. Tu jelah main menu, yg lain sumer dessert i.e. peach vanilla flan, blackforest trifle & of course besday boy punyer kek. Spaghetti kuah tu masak byk seperiuk besar (kes x reti budget hihi), so hari ni kitorang lunch & dinner mkn tu jugakla. Idlan suke banget ntah brape kali dia tambah, umi pon puji sedap alhamdulillah....so pasni bley jadi menu wajib open house yatipruzz :p

Firas wasn't that cooperative...moody semacam jek & asyik nak berdukung. Kes terkejut tgk ramai org kots ntahla...bila org balik barula dia aktif balik apo la adik!

Pepe pon, alhamdulillah sumer dah settle, rumah pon dah siap kemas..tu pon nasib baik umi byk tlg basuh mangkuk2 & pinggan...kalo nk harapkan aku nak kemas semlm sure x larat..dgn gastrik yg tetiba dtg tu lagik..aduhai thank u so much umi...luv u!!

and to B, thanx to u as well...penat awak mengemas rumah, tiup belon, set up the preparation, etc.

To my beloved Amir Firas, Happy 1 yr old sayang. Mama doakan semoga firas membesar menjadi anak yg soleh, dan berguna buat agama dan bangsamu.

And to meeself, yey congratulations for your 1-yr breastfeeding journey...alhamdulillah :))

baju sama, mama beli khas utk majlis besday ni :)
time ni firas ok lagi...

menu ari tuh


see...budak kecik ni dah start cranky
potong kek...



antara pics cousin2 diorang yg sempat disnap...

08.08.09 - Amir Firas is 1!



...and mama is 29 :p Later will update the story mori. Sbbnyer the besday girl (a.k.a meeself hehe) diserang gastrik yg terus right after majlis besday itu huhu. Malam tadi bgn kol 3am sbb muntah2...dugaan dari Allah lagi.


Pepe pon, thanx to kengkawan sumer for the wishes ok!

03 August 2009

kes teringin

Opismate ade bwk pulut kuning+rendang daging bersempena kenduri cukur jambul anaknye. Dah siap pack in a very nice packaging kagum sungguh tgk! Ku amik satu pack, tapau bwk balik since today dah berazam nak pose ganti insya Allah. Bau bukan main harum semerbak bila opismate2 mkn reramai. Adus tergodanye aku!

Tetiba teringat, aku fully bf…kata org kena pose from makan pulut and laksa setahun takut nanti anak meragam.

Aiseh patut makan atau tidak maghrib nanti?
Ape kata survey ahakkssss teringin gilerrrr dah almost setaun tak makan pulut kuning nih!!!

Bila dah pose ni, nafsu mkn mencanak-canak…dlm otak dah terpk nak buat:
- Light cheesecake ala2 la boheme – ni gara2 kak tini la post gambar cheesecake dia yg mengancam itu!
- Cream cheese brownies – gara2 farra dah mention dlm blog dia :p
- Oat chocolate chips kegemaran kami sekeluarga – walaupun belum raya lagi :p
- Cream caramel
………………

Adus baru pukul 2:34pm…..

happy banget....

sebab:
1. berjaya iklankan brg2 to let go di mudah.com.my malam jumaat lepas. Stay up sampai kol 3am seh gara2 nak snap gambar, upload, etc. Dah berjaya jual kamera digicam Nikon Coolpix 3200 kami pada harga RM60. Murah sgt ker? yerrr sudah semestinye kerana sabtu tu aku terima lebih dari 10 calls/sms/email yg interested nak grab nikon itu...terasa glamer giler sabtu tuh hihi. Siap ade yg bertanye, betul ke Rm60 cik yati? ahaksss silap strategy kah kami? igtkan tak laku dah digicam 3.2 megapixel :p

2. Sofa spt yg diiklankan di previous entry pon dah slamat diangkut oleh opismate ku a.k.a kak sem kelmarin. Lega sket ruang family hall atas kami....nampak luas dan tenang :)

3. Sedikit makeover di ruang tamu, kami berjaya gantung 'bunting' (read:kain ikea + rod) menggantikan white blind yg dah digunakan sejak 2 tahun lepas. Blind putih tu pon dah jadi ala2 creamy gitu sbb berhabuk :p

4. Berjaya tahan van paper lama dan menjual paper+magazine lama kami pada harga RM16. Dah tak semak samun porch kami dgn magazine yg bertimbun2 itewwww.

5. My little baby finally walks! Actually since the past 2 weeks dia dah made few steps, tapi kali ni dah BANYAK steps dan complete satu rumah dia tawaf. Berjaya gak dia jalan before he hits 1 yr this upcoming weekend :)

01 August 2009

Dah jam 1:34am. Baru sudah menyiapkan collage dan send for edible printing. Cadangnye utk diletakkan atas kek besday firas next week. Memula mintak tolong sifu aka sikulat tolong buatkan, tapi considering mirul dan ika yg warded lama di spital, rasanye tak enak nak kacau sifu. So buatla sendiri dgn powerpoint 2007 jer sbb laptop di rumah takde photoshop. Dah buat last week, alih2 kelmarin laptop tak boleh on, hantar kedai rupanye windows rosak. Terpaksala format C, dan gambar collage ni hilang sekali sbb saya yg bijak pandai ni save kat desktop jer :p
Tu yg struggle buat balik mlm ni...sanggup stay up tuh...mujur firas baru bgn skali je :p

okla...saya dah lapar..nak pi sambar cheese cake seketul before tido. Habit yg tak bagus kan mkn sebelum tido...tapi nak wat caner, pepagi buta ni rasa lapar plaks :)
Gud nite kengkawan!