Our youngest lil Ammar now turns 16 months old. Still a baby to the family, as what his brothers always refers him. The most dramatic and manja kid of ours, he can be so sweet at one point and later pulls tantrum in a blink. Silap gaya this budak can go guling2 on the floor, anyway that’s what apparently differentiates him from the elder brothers!
Of all the kids (cewah bunyi cam ramai benar anak :p), he is the one that attach most to me. Probably because I manage to bf him this far.
Well, this supposed to be a sad entry actually. Today marks the very first day I need to supplement ammar with formula. My frozen EBM has started to be depleting since the last Ramadhan, and yesterday the stock turns zero. Yes from beribu2 lemon, it finally reaches the zero level yesterday! Sedih toksah cakap, I may be happy and looks cool on the outside but the inner me was actually feeling the opposite. Well I know it is not the end of the world, nor did the end of my motherhood journey. I also knew that I still have loads of things to offer, and embrace through, in raising up the kids. Failure to exclusively breastfeed your baby up to 2 years doesn’t mean you are no good in this area. And despite all this, I am still continuing the pumping routine as usual, twice a day in the office. So from today onwards Ammar will be taking 3 bottles of fresh EBM plus 1-2 bottles of formula to supplement his daily needs.
So it seems I fail to meet my 2-year target of exclusive breastfeeding, now let’s revise the statement and turn it into 2-year direct breastfeeding :) The journey is still on bebeh...caiyo caiyo!!!
Sweet bunyi dia!!!!